to kill a mockingbird 杀死一只知更鸟 chapter 14-凯发k8官网

although we heard no more about the ² family from aunt alexandra, we heardplenty from the town. on saturdays, armed with our nickels, when jem permitted me toaccompany him (he was now ^{3 4} to my presence when in public), wewould squirm our way through sweating sidewalk crowds and sometimes hear, "there'shis chillun," or, "yonder's some finches." turning to face our accusers, we would seeonly a couple of farmers studying the enema bags in the mayco drugstore window. ortwo dumpy countrywomen in straw hats sitting in a hoover cart.

 

"they c'n go loose and ⁵ up the countryside for all of 'em who run this countycare," was one obscure observation we met head on from a skinny gentleman when hepassed us. which reminded me that i had a question to ask atticus.

 

"what's rape?" i asked him that night.

 

atticus looked around from behind his paper. he was in his chair by the window. aswe grew older, jem and i thought it generous to allow atticus thirty minutes to himselfafter supper.

 

he sighed, and said rape was carnal knowledge of a female by force and withoutconsent.

 

"well if that's all it is why did calpurnia dry me up when i asked her what it was?"

 

atticus looked ⁶. "what's that again?"

 

"well, i asked calpurnia comin' from church that day what it was and she said ask youbut i forgot to and now i'm askin' you."

 

his paper was now in his lap. "again, please," he said.

 

i told him in detail about our trip to church with calpurnia. atticus seemed to enjoy it,but aunt alexandra, who was sitting in a corner quietly sewing, put down her embroideryand stared at us.

 

"you all were coming back from calpurnia's church that sunday?"

 

jem said, "yessum, she took us."

 

i remembered something. "yessum, and she promised me i could come out to herhouse some afternoon. atticus. i'll go next sunday if it's all right, can i? cal said she'dcome get me if you were off in the car."

 

"you may not."

 

aunt alexandra said it. i wheeled around, startled, then turned back to atticus in timeto catch his swift glance at her, but it was too late. i said, "i didn't ask you!"

 

for a big man, atticus could get up and down from a chair faster than anyone i everknew. he was on his feet. "apologize to your aunt," he said.

 

"i didn't ask her, i asked you -- "

 

atticus turned his head and pinned me to the wall with his good eye. his voice wasdeadly: "first, apologize to your aunt."

 

"i'm sorry, aunty," i muttered.

 

"now then," he said. "let's get this clear: you do as calpurnia tells you, you do as i tellyou, and as long as your aunt's in this house, you will do as she tells you. understand?"

 

i understood, pondered a while, and concluded that the only way i could retire with ashred of dignity was to go to the bathroom, where i stayed long enough to make themthink i had to go. returning, i lingered in the hall to hear a fierce discussion going on inthe livingroom. through the door i could see jem on the sofa with a football magazine infront of his face, his head turning as if its pages contained a live tennis match.

 

"…you've got to do something about her," aunty was saying. "you've let things go ontoo long, atticus, too long."

 

"i don't see any harm in letting her go out there. cal'd look after her there as well asshe does here."

 

who was the "her" they were talking about? my heart sank: me. i felt the starchedwalls of a pink cotton ⁸ closing in on me, and for the second time in my life ithought of running away. immediately.

 

"atticus, it's all right to be soft-hearted, you're an easy man, but you have a daughterto think of. a daughter who's growing up."

 

"that's what i am thinking of."

 

"and don't try to get around it. you've got to face it sooner or later and it might as wellbe tonight. we don't need her now."

 

atticus's voice was even: "alexandra, calpurnia's not leaving this house until shewants to. you may think otherwise, but i couldn't have got along without her all theseyears. she's a faithful member of this family and you'll simply have to accept things theway they are. besides, sister, i don't want you working your head off for us -- you've noreason to do that. we still need cal as much as we ever did."#p#分页标题#e#

 

"but atticus -- "

 

"besides, i don't think the children've suffered one bit from her having brought themup. if anything, she's been harder on them in some ways than a mother would havebeen… she's never let them get away with anything, she's never indulged them the waymost colored nurses do. she tried to bring them up according to her lights, and cal'slights are pretty good -- and another thing, the children love her."

 

i breathed again. it wasn't me, it was only calpurnia they were talking about. revived,i entered the livingroom. atticus had retreated behind his newspaper and auntalexandra was worrying her ⁷. punk, punk, punk, her needle broke the tautcircle. she stopped, and pulled the cloth tighter: punk-punk-punk. she was furious.

 

jem got up and padded across the rug. he motioned me to follow. he led me to hisroom and closed the door. his face was grave.

 

"they've been fussing, ⁹."

 

jem and i fussed a great deal these days, but i had never heard of or seen anyonequarrel with atticus. it was not a comfortable sight.

 

"scout, try not to antagonize aunty, hear?"

 

atticus's remarks were still ¹⁰, which made me miss the request in jem'squestion. my feathers rose again. "you tryin' to tell me what to do?"

 

"naw, it's -- he's got a lot on his mind now, without us worrying him."

 

"like what?" atticus didn't appear to have anything especially on his mind.

 

"it's this tom robinson case that's worryin' him to death -- "

 

i said atticus didn't worry about anything. besides, the case never bothered us exceptabout once a week and then it didn't last.

 

"that's because you can't hold something in your mind but a little while," said jem.

 

"it's different with grown folks, we -- "

 

his maddening superiority was ¹¹ these days. he didn't want to do anythingbut read and go off by himself. still, everything he read he passed along to me, but withthis difference: ¹², because he thought i'd like it; now, for my edification andinstruction.

 

"jee crawling hova, jem! who do you think you are?"

 

"now i mean it, scout, you antagonize aunty and i'll -- i'll ¹³ you."

 

with that, i was gone. "you damn morphodite, i'll kill you!" he was sitting on the bed,and it was easy to grab his front hair and land one on his mouth. he slapped me and itried another left, but a punch in the stomach sent me ¹⁴ on the floor. it nearlyknocked the breath out of me, but it didn't matter because i knew he was fighting, hewas fighting me back. we were still equals.

 

"ain't so high and ¹⁵ now, are you!" i screamed, sailing in again. he was still onthe bed and i couldn't get a firm stance, so i threw myself at him as hard as i could,hitting, pulling, pinching, ¹⁶. what had begun as a fist-fight became a ¹⁷. wewere still struggling when atticus separated us.

 

"that's all," he said. "both of you go to bed right now."

 

"taah!" i said at jem. he was being sent to bed at my bedtime.

 

"who started it?" asked atticus, in resignation.

 

"jem did. he was tryin' to tell me what to do. i don't have to mind him now, do i?"

 

atticus smiled. "let's leave it at this: you mind jem whenever he can make you. fairenough?"

 

aunt alexandra was present but silent, and when she went down the hall with atticuswe heard her say, "…just one of the things i've been telling you about," a phrase thatunited us again.

 

ours were adjoining rooms; as i shut the door between them jem said, "night, scout."

 

"night," i murmured, picking my way across the room to turn on the light. as i passedthe bed i stepped on something warm, resilient, and rather smooth. it was not quite likehard rubber, and i had the sensation that it was alive. i also heard it move.

 

i switched on the light and looked at the floor by the bed. whatever i had stepped onwas gone. i tapped on jem's door.

 

"what," he said.

 

"how does a snake feel?"

 

"sort of rough. cold. dusty. why?"

 

"i think there's one under my bed. can you come look?"#p#分页标题#e#

 

"are you bein' funny?" jem opened the door. he was in his pajama bottoms. i noticednot without satisfaction that the mark of my ¹⁸ was still on his mouth. when hesaw i meant what i said, he said, "if you think i'm gonna put my face down to a snakeyou've got another think comin'. hold on a minute."

 

he went to the kitchen and fetched the broom. "you better get up on the bed," he said.

 

"you reckon it's really one?" i asked. this was an occasion. our houses had nocellars; they were built on stone blocks a few feet above the ground, and the entry ofreptiles was not unknown but was not commonplace. miss rachel haverford's excusefor a glass of neat whiskey every morning was that she never got over the fright offinding a rattler coiled in her bedroom closet, on her washing, when she went to hang upher negligee.

 

jem made a tentative swipe under the bed. i looked over the foot to see if a snakewould come out. none did. jem made a deeper swipe.

 

"do snakes ¹⁹?"

 

"it ain't a snake," jem said. "it's somebody."

 

suddenly a ²⁰ brown package shot from under the bed. jem raised the broom andmissed dill's head by an inch when it appeared.

 

"god ²¹." jem's voice was ²².

 

we watched dill emerge by degrees. he was a tight fit. he stood up and eased hisshoulders, turned his feet in their ankle ²³, rubbed the back of his neck. hiscirculation restored, he said, "hey."

 

jem petitioned god again. i was speechless.

 

"i'm '¹ to perish," said dill. "got anything to eat?"

 

in a dream, i went to the kitchen. i brought him back some milk and half a pan of cornbread left over from supper. dill ²⁴ it, chewing with his front teeth, as was hiscustom.

 

i finally found my voice. "how'd you get here?"

 

by an involved route. refreshed by food, dill recited this ²⁵: having been boundin chains and left to die in the basement (there were basements in ²⁶) by his newfather, who disliked him, and secretly kept alive on raw field peas by a passing farmerwho heard his cries for help (the good man ²⁷ a bushel pod by pod through theventilator), dill worked himself free by pulling the chains from the wall. still in wristmanacles, he wandered two miles out of meridian where he discovered a small animalshow and was immediately engaged to wash the camel. he traveled with the show allover mississippi until his infallible sense of direction told him he was in abbott county,alabama, just across the river from maycomb. he walked the rest of the way.

 

"how'd you get here?" asked jem.

 

he had taken thirteen dollars from his mother's purse, caught the nine o'clock frommeridian and got off at maycomb ²⁸. he had walked ten or eleven of the fourteenmiles to maycomb, off the highway in the scrub bushes lest the authorities be seekinghim, and had ridden the remainder of the way clinging to the backboard of a cottonwagon. he had been under the bed for two hours, he thought; he had heard us in thediningroom, and the clink of forks on plates nearly drove him crazy. he thought jem andi would never go to bed; he had considered emerging and ²⁹ me beat jem, as jemhad grown far taller, but he knew mr. finch would break it up soon, so he thought it bestto stay where he was. he was worn out, dirty beyond belief, and home.

 

"they must not know you're here," said jem. "we'd know if they were lookin' foryou…"

 

"think they're still searchin' all the picture shows in meridian." dill grinned.

 

"you oughta let your mother know where you are," said jem. "you oughta let her knowyou're here…"

 

dill's eyes ³⁰ at jem, and jem looked at the floor. then he rose and broke theremaining code of our childhood. he went out of the room and down the hall. "atticus,"

 

his voice was distant, "can you come here a minute, sir?"

 

beneath its sweat-streaked dirt dill's face went white. i felt sick. atticus was in thedoorway.

 

he came to the middle of the room and stood with his hands in his pockets, lookingdown at dill.

 

i finally found my voice: "it's okay, dill. when he wants you to know somethin', he tellsyou."

 

dill looked at me. "i mean it's all right," i said. "you know he wouldn't bother you, youknow you ain't scared of atticus."#p#分页标题#e#

 

"i'm not scared…" dill muttered.

 

"just hungry, i'll bet." atticus's voice had its usual pleasant dryness. "scout, we can dobetter than a pan of cold corn bread, can't we? you fill this fellow up and when i getback we'll see what we can see."

 

"mr. finch, don't tell aunt rachel, don't make me go back, please sir! i'll run offagain -- !"

 

"whoa, son," said atticus. "nobody's about to make you go anywhere but to bed prettysoon. i'm just going over to tell miss rachel you're here and ask her if you could spendthe night with us -- you'd like that, wouldn't you? and for goodness' sake put some of thecounty back where it belongs, the soil erosion's bad enough as it is."

 

dill stared at my father's retreating figure.

 

"he's tryin' to be funny," i said. "he means take a bath. see there, i told you hewouldn't bother you."

 

jem was ³¹ in a corner of the room, looking like the ³² he was. "dill, i had totell him," he said. "you can't run three hundred miles off without your mother knowin'."

 

we left him without a word.

 

dill ate, and ate, and ate. he hadn't eaten since last night. he used all his money for aticket, boarded the train as he had done many times, coolly chatted with the conductor,to whom dill was a familiar sight, but he had not the nerve to ³³ the rule on smallchildren traveling a distance alone if you've lost your money the conductor will lend youenough for dinner and your father will pay him back at the end of the line.

 

dill made his way through the ³⁴ and was reaching for a can of pork and beansin the pantry when miss rachel's do-oo je-sus went off in the hall. he shivered like arabbit.

 

he bore with ³⁵ her wait till i get you home, your folks are out of their mindsworryin', was quite calm during that's all the harris in you coming out, smiled at herreckon you can stay one night, and returned the hug at long last ³⁶ upon him.

 

atticus pushed up his glasses and rubbed his face.

 

"your father's tired," said aunt alexandra, her first words in hours, it seemed. she hadbeen there, but i suppose struck dumb most of the time. "you children get to bed now."

 

we left them in the diningroom, atticus still mopping his face. "from rape to riot torunaways," we heard him ³⁷. "i wonder what the next two hours will bring."

 

since things appeared to have worked out pretty well, dill and i ³⁸ to be civil tojem. besides, dill had to sleep with him so we might as well speak to him.

 

i put on my ³⁹, read for a while and found myself suddenly unable to keep myeyes open. dill and jem were quiet; when i turned off my reading lamp there was nostrip of light under the door to jem's room.

 

i must have slept a long time, for when i was punched awake the room was dim withthe light of the setting moon.

 

"move over, scout."

 

"he thought he had to," i ⁴⁰. "don't stay mad with him."

 

dill got in bed beside me. "i ain't," he said. "i just wanted to sleep with you. are youwaked up?"

 

by this time i was, but lazily so. "why'd you do it?"

 

no answer. "i said why'd you run off? was he really hateful like you said?"

 

"naw…"

 

"didn't you all build that boat like you wrote you were gonna?"

 

"he just said we would. we never did."

 

i raised up on my elbow, facing dill's outline. "it's no reason to run off. they don't getaround to doin' what they say they're gonna do half the time…"

 

"that wasn't it, he -- they just wasn't interested in me."

 

this was the ⁴¹ reason for flight i had ever heard. "how come?"

 

"well, they stayed gone all the time, and when they were home, even, they'd get off ina room by themselves."

 

"what'd they do in there?"

 

"nothin', just sittin' and readin' -- but they didn't want me with 'em."

 

i pushed the pillow to the headboard and sat up. "you know something? i was fixin' torun off tonight because there they all were. you don't want 'em around you all the time,dill -- "#p#分页标题#e#

 

dill breathed his patient breath, a half-sigh.

 

" -- good night, atticus's gone all day and sometimes half the night and off in thelegislature and i don't know what -- you don't want 'em around all the time, dill, youcouldn't do anything if they were."

 

"that's not it."

 

as dill explained, i found myself wondering what life would be if jem were different,even from what he was now; what i would do if atticus did not feel the necessity of mypresence, help and advice. why, he couldn't get along a day without me. evencalpurnia couldn't get along unless i was there. they needed me.

 

"dill, you ain't telling me right -- your folks couldn't do without you. they must be justmean to you. tell you what to do about that -- "

 

dill's voice went on ⁴² in the darkness: "the thing is, what i'm tryin' to say is -- they do get on a lot better without me, i can't help them any. they ain't mean. they buyme everything i want, but it's now -- you've-got-it-go-play-with-it. you've got a roomful ofthings. i-got-you-that-book-so-go-read-it." dill tried to deepen his voice. "you're not aboy. boys get out and play baseball with other boys, they don't hang around the houseworryin' their folks."

 

dill's voice was his own again: "oh, they ain't mean. they kiss you and hug you goodnight and good mornin' and good-bye and tell you they love you -- scout, let's get us ababy."

 

"where?"

 

there was a man dill had heard of who had a boat that he rowed across to a foggyisland where all these babies were; you could order one -- "that's a lie. aunty said god drops 'em down the chimney. at least that's what i thinkshe said." for once, aunty's diction had not been too clear.

 

"well that ain't so. you get babies from each other. but there's this man, too -- he hasall these babies just waitin' to wake up, he breathes life into 'em…"

 

dill was off again. beautiful things floated around in his dreamy head. he could readtwo books to my one, but he preferred the magic of his own inventions. he could addand subtract faster than lightning, but he preferred his own ⁴³ world, a world wherebabies slept, waiting to be gathered like morning lilies. he was slowly talking himself tosleep and taking me with him, but in the quietness of his foggy island there rose thefaded image of a gray house with sad brown doors.

 

"dill?"

 

"mm?"

 

"why do you reckon boo radley's never run off?"

 

dill sighed a long sigh and turned away from me.

 

"maybe he doesn't have anywhere to run off to…"

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